Dysalexic

I don’t really have anything to say. Except that I hate when people tell me that I’m young. I want to throw back the cliche line: “but life is too short!” I refrain from trying to piss off my coworkers.

I have this weird complex. I really want to be in love, but I don’t want to fall out of it. I don’t think that I’m falling out of love right now, but I definitely feel like I’m drifting. It’s one of the most hurtful things ever, to watch someone you care about so much just lose interest in you. I mean, we did not go through the most orthodox break up, I guess.. so part of me is still clinging to that. At the same time, I know that it’s inevitable. There’s someone out there more suitable for both of us.

I have to work on Valentines Day. Normally, this would bother me.. but since I’m single for the first Valentines day in at least 3 years, I don’t care. It will keep me focused, and possibly not as depressed. Unless I get “Happy Valentines day” wishes from coworkers, in which case I will probably cry.

I also want to do something completely out of character and crazy. I don’t know what yet. Maybe a flight to Arizona for spring break..

The tedium of life is driving me nuts. I go to school or work and then come home and read, or sit online for the rest of the night. I need something to shake me up.

Thank god for Nola. I don’t know what I would do without her.